Recollection

Even yesterday feels like a dream and nothing really actually feels real. Recollecting...I started to recollect my memories like they have been chucked back at one corner long time ago.
Suddenly I feel distant. Distant from reality and was yesterday even real?

You know about this saying goes "Somethings are better left unsaid"? There are so many things that left unspoken for me since a long time ago. Repercussion? It will still come back to haunt you but in another cynical scenario and each time the threaten even more deathly.

I now feel so tired. My eyes so heavy and soul feel like difting to sleepland again. Guess that is the only time where emotions go back to sleep.

So back to recollection.
A long while after reaching home, I suddenly went to dug out my 'yesterdays'. I wanted to understand where is the link and is there really one in the first place?
I realised how much a lovefool I was 'yesterday'. (Yesterday is just a relative term of measure, not exactly literally yesterday.)
Page after page. It is all about my feelings. My tears, my pain, my happiness, my 5 seconds worth of hope. All these things I have long put behind me are nothing but pieces of memories now.

But when you miss someone and make it a point to miss that someone long enough, that someone would not fade away with time. That someone would eventually become a fossil in your heart. Even though that sense of missing has dried up, it will still remain there.

Dear friends, I am pretty sure most of you might have that fossil in your heart. (Or is it just my problem?) If you have know my story, how would you actually feel if you were me? Can you actually shrug it off? Tell me if you can,tell me how?

Somethings are better left unsaid. Even you are 'pushing' me to say but would it do anyone of us good? I don't think so.

A piece of memory. A piece of longing. A sense of missing and a sense of pain.

Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow.